Oh Atlanta I hear ya callin'

Well sadly our amazing fun weekend with Cody's fam down south is over 8( but there are great pics and memories to look at. Sadly I didn't get that many photos taken-mainly from the first day there when Cody showed me around their property and a few random ones after that, but I can't wait til Shayne uploads all hers-some great ones of six flags and four wheeling, so stay tuned.
but to tide you over:

a monastery nearby





pretty cherry blossoms!


the treehouse


cody running from sophie





that's in their backyard-isn't it pretty?!


rope swing!





kind of an inside joke but we were really excited when we saw it 8)


Cody fulfilling his elderly brother duty of beating the younger siblings:



It was a GREAT trip!

I can't explain it...it's like trying to go to sleep on christmas eve. We leave for georgia tomorrow. I know that I have a break the next few days with no homework or work getting in the way of our fun. I'm just a lil excited-no matter what types of plane bums we have to fight off (ask code)but I can't stop laughing about it.
I promise there will be tons of pictures to share when I get back and awesome stories 8)

Holy Spewage Batman....

yeah, so the title doesn't really leave a lot to figure out. Sunday was a GREAT and HORRIBLE day all wrapped up into one. The first half was amazing. My younger bro (notice I didn't say little steve-you're welcome)got ordained an elder in the Melchezidek Priesthood!!! I'm so proud of him and all the good choices he's making as he gets ready to get his papers in for a mission. Then we got to go and listen as he got his patriarchal blessing. So a very spiritual first half of the day. Then dad took us to the newly revamped cannon center where they DID NOT serve the amazing chicken cordon bleu (not bitter at all about that). Instead I had to have the turkey and veggie plate that wasn't that great at all. It wasn't great at all in that I spent the rest of my Sunday with a bad stomache ache and throwing up a few times. I can't even remember the last time that I did that-has to be hands down the worst feeling ever! ugh.
But thanks to a sweet comforting boyfriend with the priesthood I am back on track today. Even though I managed to get a lot of things done today I still have so much to do before the Georgia trip this weekend-which is gonna be AMAZING! but I just can't focus anymore-boo and meh....

new moon....new laughs

IT actually happened-I had a girls' night out last night....can't remember the last time I had one where we actually went out and I wasn't delerious with fever 8)

So we ate at rubio's-pretty good and then me and drea went off to see new moon in the dollar theatre.

wow....


hmmm


well....

i'm not sure where to start...let's just say that...the acting got marginally better from the first movie so in comparing them to themselves a few years ago it was a good movie-the problem is just when you start comparing them to any other movie...

some of my favorite parts: her random screaming fits at night-those never got old and always brought a laugh, jacob's need to take off a shirt at any sign of trouble-his muscles couldn't save him from his acting tho.

The one part I could appreciate was the montage sequence of her just sitting there out of it and depressed after Edward left with no expression on her face etc...it was amazing how long she could hold that expression-a perfect acting challenge for her i think ;)

anywho, the only really annoying part was how EVERYONE mumbles in this movie-my mom could not watch this movie cause every other line she'd be asking: what did he say? what did she say? Apparently vampires are fluent in mumble and barely moving their lips cause so many times me and drea just looked at each other like...what? oh well, there was still other mockable qualities even if we couldn't hear half of the lines delivered.
Honestly, it wasn't that bad it's just fun to mock when watching a movie-like mystery science theatre 3000.
off to watch another movie but i can't mock this one...it's of mice and men and I have to interpret its editing.

Exception

check out this song by paramore (last song on my playlist)-it's realy mellow and sweet unlike a lot of thier stuff. I love the bridge 8)

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it
And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darlin'

{Chorus}
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

{Verse 2}
Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face
And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm content
With loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk

{Chorus}
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

{Instrumental and Drums}

{Bridge}
I've got a tight grip on reality, but I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving in the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream
Ooh Ooh...

{Chorus}
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
[X2]

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing

It's amazing to have someone that proves you wrong and forces you to make exceptions to your preconceived theories and rules (in a good way, obviously) and I have one.

musical soap box anyone?

wow...it must be a music kind of day...I always get in an excited about music mood when I'm working on something which is what I was doing for my Isaiah project-composing something based on a few verses etc. I admit watching the clips below got me in the mood for moving music so I went to some of my favorites in itunes: Barber's Adagio for strings Op. 11. This piece and I go waaaaaaaaaay back.

The first time I remember hearing it-and I remember it distinctly, me and my older brother Mike were up late (shh don't tell mom and dad) playing "The Dig" an old computer game by Lucas that was sort of a mind puzzle/action type of game. Anywho, I remember specifically being really swept away by the music-even then (i was prolly 11/12) and because of that have always had this magical impression of that game (seriously i want to own it some day).

Fast forward 3 or 4 years and I was walking in the band hall at Austin High School and there was this amazingly beautiful song playing over the loud speakers that seemed so familiar and then I remembered it from the game and got all excited all over again. I stood there frozen for the remaining 5 minutes of the song just drinking it in and looked up to see my band director watching and asked what the song was, ta da: Barber's adagio for strings Op. 11.

I never forgot after that and even just now I decided to listen to it as loud as my lil toshi could go and even now I get swept away by it. I mean...maybe I'm just really weird and overly sensitive to music but I started getting choked up at the climax of the piece...I dunno....it's just that nothing touches me like music does-it's like....touching heaven even if it's only for a second, it stirs the soul and just feels magical...at least, i havent' really had anything quite have the same affect on me as music-tho maybe it's different for everyone. Though, maybe nothing has come as close as music, film is probably my number two-with the right imagery and soundtrack it can have a similar effect.
anywho-one of my favorite soup boxes...I can't help but be utterly perplexed by people who don't like music-i just don't understand them. That's like saying...I don't like beautiful days, I don't particularly like breathing-psychos all of them. I mean, you don't have to be obsessed like me, but....at least be able to FEEL something/appreciate something/be open to it.
sorry all you music haters but you best be steppin' and go listen to BARBER'S ADAGIO FOR STRINGS OP. 11 and change your life 8)

luv luv luv it

One of my favorite movie moments-one of....about a million 8)
I can't imagine how good that would feel to have something you'd written and finally get to really hear what it sounds like

and....another: hmm...seeing a pattern? haha

In the arms of the angel...may you find some comfort here

sheesh I can't even remember when I last wrote or what I wrote about. I'd say this semester has been pretty good so far if I'm only really getting stressed now. it's all cause I have two classes that have a major project or paper due in the next month and it's basically the whole class so it's gotta be good-nevermind all the reading and prep i've done for classes-in the end it won't reflect my grade really. At least it's been interesting and I've learned a few things.

I've been thinking lately about how I deal with emotions. Ya know how some people cry when they're sad? Well that's all nice and good but I wish that were the only time I cried. Basically whenever I am feeling an intense/strong emotion my reaction is to cry. So...if I get really mad/frustrated-tears. They're not boo-hoo tears mind you but they stream all the same. If I feel really guilty/bad about something-the sprinklers turn on. If I'm really stressed-I'm walking the line all the time just waiting for something to set me off and the water works to come. Now I know it sounds like I must be some kind of crazy cry baby-loosing it over hallmark commercials, but that's just it-I'm not!

I have a hate/love relationship with crying. I like it cause it's a release and I feel better afterwards, but I for some reason HATE letting people see me cry-I feel so stupid, self-conscious and irrational or over emotional. So it only compounds whatever emotion I'm feeling cause if I'm say stressed and the tears are fighting to come, but I'm constantly fighting them back-it makes me want to cry more, and it's really draining after awhile and really I need the comfort of someone but am denying myself that comfort by just shrugging off my emotional need for support and plastering a smile on my face. This is something I want to change about myself...I don't want to be emotionally distant. I mean, obviously there are times when you need to stay positive and not fall to pieces every time you feel something other than happy, but I think these lil emotional over flows would be less frequent if I actually acknowledged emotional needs whenever they come up. Not that i'll run blubbering to just anybody, but I have my safety net and I should use it if I need to.

Having said all of that, the past few days have been kind of an emotional roller coaster and this week is a stressful one (test, quiz,mini paper, and a prospectus), heck the whole month is. I'm just feeling a little drained and there doesn't seem to be enough hours in the day. But hey, a restful sleep can make everything seem not so bad right? Off to try that...

things that make me happy:

getting filled up spiritually with a great temple trip
code
knowing i have just enough time to get a big assignment done
the little moments
the band of brothers soundtrack that i'm listening to right now
when byu beats utah!
how warm it's getting!
ticklish moments
gettin' in bed before midnight-i know, code must be rubbing off on me 8)
going to a rugby match saturday and see guys pull moves that would NEVER be allowed in any other sports
being content with the present but still looking forward to the future.