wake up slow

haha, oh friends are great, friends are funny. The ironic thing is, is that I didn't necessarily have a crush it's just that...i'm a dreamer and so I'll get carried away in my own imaginings and then get frustrated when I realize how silly and girly I was being-I hadn't even decided if I had a crush or not, but that didn't matter for my dreaming self. Apparently I don't need much to go on to just whip up a possible scenario in my head and then heaven forbid it doesn't pan out just like that, haha.
anywho, but thanks for the support ya'll-you rock! Trust me, if i had an actual full on crush there would be much more details.
So I'm set to go into the drill-master (aka dentist) monday. whoopie....sigh, my teeth are one o those things that I think have been given to me to try me and it's working, but o well-this too shall pass. I saw the proposal with steve last night. It was really funny there were just those few scenes that were highly not necessary and could have been done a lil more tastefully with different camera angles. Let's just say I won't be able to watch the office the same ever again-man i almost wanted to claw my eyes out, haha but it's cured me of any future desire to go to a strip club so that was helpful i guess. shudder...
anywho, but i've decided that i really like the guy in that movie-the same guy in the in-laws. I really liked him in this movie-his personality, style, etc. and I think he's flippin hot. shrug, i'll include a pic for ya'lls enjoyment-no need to thank me.
I love tender mercies-just love em' can't get enough of em' ..."and that's all I have to say about that."

emotions are funny things. Have you ever thought about how fast emotions can change? One instant you can be all excited and one little thing happens and your excitement is dashed and you're suddenly extremely frustrated instantly regretting ever feeling excited and it's all pretty much irrational. That pretty much sums up most crushes i've had on guys, but it's ok-I've always liked roller coasters (insert eye roll here). Maybe i should just be more rational and skip out on the high highs and the low lows, or i'll just ignore it per usual and study my brain to a pulp- YEA STUDY!

oh so cold

oh so cold. I'm tired of being cold. The church was cold. I got up to bare my testimony the stage was FREEZING. The sunday school class/RS room was cold. and our apartment is cold. I'm sitting on our AMAZING recliner with a blanket waiting for my laptop to warm up and then warm me up.

Sadly I can't remember any of my dreams last night or if there was a celeb or not-i totally jinxed it anyway by pointing it out. I think my subconscious is just missing the regular volume of movies that I watch. This month I've watched maybe one or two and so my subconscious is like fine! I'll just watch some movies now but sadly can't remember the movies in detail and feels the need to include me in them-shrug. How cool would that be to go to sleep and your mind can play a movie back to you? Of course I wouldn't want it every night cause let's face it-no movies can be as crazy and random as some of my dreams and it's fun to see what I'm thinking when I'm not conscious.
Speaking of crazy dreams, so in my humanities class (which more often than not feels like a science class cause my teacher likes to go off on random tangents about electrons and quantum physics...don't ask) so in this class we learned about Jung (psychoanalyst) and apparently he had this mid-life identity crisis thing and throughout it sort of kept this journal/diary where he wrote down all of these thoughts/experiences/dreams etc and apparently they are really intense and some disturbing but interesting and they've finally published it for anyone to read. It's called "New Book" in latin. Anyways, some say no one should read it and others say that everyone should. I dunno....it seems interesting to me. There's an article on it from the New York Times called: The Holy Grail of the Unconscious. Just to sum it up the first paragraphas the article:

"This is a story about a nearly 100 year-old book, bound in red leather, which has spent the last quarter century secreted away in a bank vault in Switzerland. The book is big and heavy and its spine is etched with gold letters that say "Liber Novus," which is Latin for New Book. Its pages are made from thick cream-colored parchment and filled with paintings of otherworldly creatures and handwritten dialogues with gods and devils. If you didn't know the book's vintage, you might confuse it for a lost medieval tome.
And yet between the book's heavy covers, a very modern story unfolds. It goes as follows: Man skids into midlife and loses his soul. Man goes looking for soul. After a lot of instructive ahrdship and adventure-taking place entirely in his head-he finds it again."

um....freud...what do you think?

So the past few nights i have had consistent dreams with celebs in them. The first one: I was in a tramvi in moscow and i didn't know hwere i was goin or why i was there and val kilmer shows up like he was in the saint and we talk in russian to not give our "americanness" away and then he leaves and i'm mad cause he didn't help me. The next night I dream that I get stood up by my fiance and am upset and his brother comes and trys to make me feel better (the guy from the devil wears prada that is all cute and trys to get the main girl but ends up being jerkish?) and then sandra bullock shows up as my twin sister. Then last night's dream at the end of it randomly dakota fanning was asking me to teach her how to play fur elise.

I can't wait to see who is in my dreams tonight.

Scotland continued....

What the random?!

I realize that I have been sort of lax with my blogging of late. So here's some catch up pics from Scotland-it's amazing...I'm not a professional and yet so many of my pictures look amazing and it's not even as good looking as it really was.


This is just near our b&b in edinburough



this is called ...um forgot-but a cool bluff near our b&b



our first pub



yea...i dunno


to be continued...

and now a message from Dwight...

Philosopher's soccer match- frickin' hilarious! i luv monty python 8)

old man thunder

Two thoughts:
1. I love how much I love all of my classes. It's a lil weird but before the mish I would maybe enjoy but mostly stress....now, I know I should be by all means stressed but I just enjoy the actual in-class part of it too much to stress too much. I feel like Rorie (yes i'm referencing gilmore girls) when she goes on tour to harvard and sits in on a class and just loves all of it-is soaking it all up. yea...i realize that makes me a nerd and sadly, doesn't gaurantee that i'm intelligent 8)
2. I walked out of my last class and it was darker than at dusk (i get out at 5-not THAT late) and the clouds were all gloomy and overcast-looks cool up against the mountains and it was starting to rain and then it happened: i heard thunder. This is a rare occurance in provo-it just doesn't storm like it should here. So as everyone around me is scurring away, pulling up their hoodies (seriously, what do they think-they're going to melt?) I walked around with a goofy/sappy grin on my face walking a lil slower than normal.

ok-so cute and watch it ALL cause it gets better at the very end!

....i want one so bad...

7.67

for 4 books!!! Are they random-yes! do I need them- prolly not! but for that price those questions don't even matter anymore.
I got a random fictional that is actually based in St. Andrew's golf course and is all about it and golf so i figured-hello present for dad (did i ever mention i got a whole in one on St. Andrew's?) and then there were two random books about Russia and different things in their history which i'll find interesting no matter what and then there's the book on the 2007-2008 byu basketball team and guess who's in it??? yup Gavin Pants which was totally fun to see and i haven't decided if that one will be for me or dad but either way....7.67!
I was just thinking about looking at people around me and seeing what they were buying and what that told me about them-i should totally try it sometime, go to a bookstore and learn about the people...ok guys from what they're buying but then i realized...how confused would a guy be looking at my selections:

The Russian Anarchists
Epic Revisionism (russian history and literature as stalinist propaganda)
St. Andrews Sojourn
Brigham Young University Cougar (07-08) Basketball

....paints quite the twisted picture doesn't it....

I only need 24 more...

hours that is. I'm sure I have written a post like this at the beginning of any semester after having had a break from school but seriously it kills me how rushed and fast everything comes at me. I would LOVE to give 110% of myself to one class. I would learn so much more and would be able to commit so much more of my thoughts and efforts to it but i feel like that about all SEVEN of my classes. SO basically I'm running around from one to another trying to do all that i can and get all i can out of it and not forget it among all the other info that's just pouring into my brain and sadly some of it is splattering out.
argh.
such is life so i'll make the best of it and relearn how to multi-task and compartmentalize and pray a whole LOT!

her morning elegance- thanks marlee 8)

agreeable adventures

Talk about your active weekends-and active in a good way. First of all made it successfully to salt lake without any hiccups-kudos to me. I almost went to lagoon which was exciting-haha, jk jk. Got to hear some real chinese and eat ashtray veggies and orange rind 8)
Peaked in the windows of a haunted mansion, almost scaled the walls of the temple. Got scared by a balloon in the shape of number 5, learned that I need to brush up on my fence hopping skills, and that there is a bug somewhere that sounds EXACTLY like footprints in the grass coming towards you which i've affectionately named the (creepy)stalker bug, and most importantly i learned that just because there is an insanely long gummi snake it does NOT mean that it will taste good and that grass can infact be pretty green even if it's over on the utes' side.

Of course major props go to the cougars for our victory over OU last night. i'm not sure if my dad will ever forgive me for missing most of it but that's the kind of love i have for Marlee 8) we ate at guru's which was good but it didn't really agree with me and was more expensive than i normally go but, eh, it was ok and then we watched the dark crystal over at Chris' (wow, what a trip-i forgot how crazy it was). Today has been good but i seem to have gotten a lil cold and my roomie has introduced me to peppermint oil and it's AMAZING!

later sports fans...

bats in your belfry?

I really like my music theory teacher. We had a show and tell day yesterday where he brought his unicycle that he rides to campus every day, an instrument that he created out of some PBC pipe and a balloon-sounds like some deep ancient horn you hear in some tribe or something, and then he played us this song on the bells that he composed. yea...maybe i'm just not as cultured as i thought but i didn't absolutely love it- crazy sounding bells just sound like noise to me. I guess I just don't have the ears for it. Anyway, he told us he used to play in the bell tower up by DT and then as an after thought said-would you guys like to have a tour? Of course we all said yes very enthusiastically so he was like,...ok let's go. So we went. There's like 96 stairs in that beast! It reminded me of all those super narrow winding spiral staircases in castles in Scotland. I played a note on it. Yup, that's right, so if you heard a note from the bell tower around twelve twenty that could have been me!

anyway, that about does it for my adventures yesterday. I went to the place we'd always study in the library today and they play classical music over the speakers now which...is fine, but sometimes it's a lil too loud so that i listen to the music and forget about what i'm trying to read.

getting used to the hike up to campus 8)Can't wait for the game saturday-go cougs!

and apparently i'll get my computer back "in a few days" yea...that's what they said Saturday.
geek squad shmeek squad.