twiddle twiddle (that's my thumbs)

What the random international hits...shrug, small world apparently.
It's starting to set in-the home duldrums-not that it's bad being home, i luv it just....I don't do well without some kind of structure and here there is zero to speak of and i'm in a lazy mood right now so forget me creating my own schedule of things to do. Lots of thoughts buzzing around the brain with nothing to do never equals a good mood for me-leaves me feeling restless and useless. It seems one of the most productive and respectable things to do a lot of is read. If you watch too much t.v. or too many movies it's no longer respectable and people start to judge you/think you have no life, but reading-reading seems to always be safe. I'll be in trouble if that ever goes. And today started out so good...babysitting, walking the dog, going on another walk... I guess it's off to read until the game...

According to my presents I was pretty nice this year...

I got lots of itune gift cards-cha ching and a carraba's card. But the HUGE gift-the big one was....are you ready? I don't think you're ready.....ok, but i'll tell you anyway cause i'm still glowing over it: THE COMPLETE SEASONS of GILMORE GIRLS!!! my roommates will be soooo excited!

I was pretty surprised because that's a lot of money but oh i will get my money's worth out of it!!!

Also, got lots of other movies and some really interesting books that i can't wait to get into-tho i need to finish the dan brown book first. I got a way cool shawl/scarf thing from eric from iraq and lots of other great odds and ends. It was a great christmas and it will go out with a bang with our Thanksgiving dinner tonight (shrug, mom didn't get to make her turkey meal this year yet-score!)

Well we made it.

So I think we made pretty good time- we left around 8:30 am Sunday morning and got in around 9:00 am Monday morning, and I didn't even have to drive-Carley's hubby was hardcore and drove half the time.
The roads were clear and all and all it was a pretty smooth trip just insanely loooong.
So once again i'm "home" which strangely feels less and less like home and more and more like a nice trip down memory lane but a trip that I know won't last too long-just a nice lil short respite from the day to day. The weather has definitely welcomed me appropriately with gloomy clouds today-Sugar Land always knows just what I like ;)
It's funny but being home it's always interesting to see how people fall into their old pecking orders- i mean, i guess technically less teasing than there used to be when we were little but not by much 8)
800 miles...that's not too far right? compared to the trip i just made it's nothin.
Well hoping all made it home safely for the hollidays wherever home is and that all are watching the vegas bowl tonight!
Go Cougs!!

so we're off....if you don't hear from me in 24 hours....send a search party-we'll be somewhere between utah and texas.

IT BURNS!

So in case you were wondering, the warning in red around this contact solution is there for a reason. "Do not rinse with Clear Care prior to insertion"
Last night I ran out of contact solution so I figured I'd use a squirt of my roomies' and without thinking used this kind. Fast Forward six hours- i'm putting my contact in and INSTANTLY my eye shuts and starts BURNING like you wouldn't believe and I start flushing it out with water but not before my eye was way red. Oh the pain, oh....the pain.....
So apparently this solution is supposed to be poured into this lil case thing that has a medal contact holder in the middle and there's a chemical reacton with the medal thing and it cleans the contact and instead...it had a nice lil chemical reaction with my eyeball.
O-O-OUCH, but all is well that ends well and by the wedding it wasn't obvious-at least people didn't think I was crying so that's good.

It was a BEAUTIFUL sealing and a niice luncheon.
On to the reception!

p.s. got a new winter coat-and am so exited about it! Let it snow, Let it snow, Let it snow! (only...just a lil cause i gotta drive home on Sunday)

57 reasons why...

tonight was a great night:
-making a unique dining experience in the back of a hyundai
-discovering a new favorite group: The Classic Crime
-getting a pack of rook cards that I will NEVER throw out no matter how old and tattered they get.
-beautiful lights on temple square
-seeing a goat-dog (technical name: doat or gog) (rare but they do exist apparently in the east).
-seeing some trees of no account and some with account.
-magical snap shots near the not so creepy dead marshes
-making a wish
-58 post-it notes.
-taking virtual tours of sugar land and atlanta (who knew they looked so similar to I-15,small world)
-finding paper bags with russian and korean on them side by side
-being creepers in other people's photos
-wearing my gloves for the first time
-the way he looks at me
-my malchik (ok so this one has a few repeats...ok, 35 repeats to be exact)


P.S. I CAN'T believe that drea is getting hitched tomorrow....wow...."another one bites the dust!" It'll be fun though with my roommates and spaz there. Believe it or not after all my friends getting married this is only my second wedding to attend-i always knew I'd be the last to go (not in a negative way either, just felt that it would turn out that way and was ok with it-i enjoy my personal time table.)

Fav lyrics from the classic crime:

"I left you last week and you told me, "Go on and follow your dreams,"
I think about that lately, still I don't know what it means
Becuase you're what I dream of when I wake alone,
as I drift away as we talk on the phone,
you're all that I want and that's all that I know,
And I still just can't wait to get home"

"If you haven't been tested, you certainly will,
And I promise it's going to kill."

"my head feels fuzzy..."

quote anyone, anyone?
I haven't felt this "jet-lagged" since Scotland. I guess that's what I get for staying up late and getting up early for two days in a row. Well Russian is over and it wasn't too bad having drifted off a million times while cramming and there's just hum350 left to email in which...i dunno...maybe i'll wait to do it when i'm more coherent tomorrow-yea...kuddos to using my head.

Dinner is going to be good 8)

i like it times 4

hmm...i feel like i should blog but when it comes down to it i'm just not feeling it...i won't make you suffer through a non-sincere post, congratulations you just got a free 10 minutes of time back-don't spend it all in one place.

slam dunk and a boo-ya!

So I had my "final" for dictation today and miracle of miracles (no, seriously) it went REALLY well. So far I had a 85 average on all the tests and with this test I got a 100. This is especially good because if we do better on this last test than the others combined then it will count as 60% (and if it would have been less than it would have counted 40%). Needless to say this makes Whit VERY happy and grateful-no seriously i'm not an amazing diction....ist? and got a lot of help from upstairs on this one.
Now it's just memorizing art slides and one more class at three and then i'm done with only three finals left-one of which i'm getting over with on Saturday 8)
You gotta luv the wind down of the semester, AND i'm way excited cause my creative juices/ideas are starting to flow for christmas presents and i luv doing stuff like that-i feel so mischievous doing something secret for someone it's great-highly recommend it.

Happy Holidays

It's amazing how fast it can suddenly feel like Christmas. All you need are a few million frozen pieces of water and a string of lights and you're ready for some holiday cheer. Today was a good day. One of those days where you feel warm fuzzies-yes, today i was living in a hallmark card. Of course it wasn't warm and fuzzy for everyone, in fact, for some it was down right cold and hard-I saw three people biff it today hardcore. We're talking classic slipping gags you see in the cheesy comedy movies where they flail their arms and land on their back etc. I grimaced every time-it's only a matter of time people.
While I was waiting for our ward party to start I meandered in the bookstore and found crime and punishment for five bucks and figured since i hadn't read any of the classics from dostoevsky or tolstoy i should start, AND found a book that has been on the best-sellers list that i've been meaning to read- something about three cups of tea? anywho, I got them and am sooo excited to start them!
For our ward party we had dinner from zupas and then went christmas caroling( one l or two?) to some less active/non members around here and it was so much fun! I don't mean to brag but our group sounded good 8) Then I got to watch one of my favorite movies with my favorite spaz over hot cocoa.
Tomorrow is gonna be fun too-if Dad manages to get in tomorrow we're gonna go out to eat and then to the bball game!
Here's to sleeping all snuggled up in your bed while snow is falling outside.

cycles are funny things and I have to wonder if you ever can progress. I mean, technically you eventually get back to where you were right? But then again it could be like a wheel-yea you're going through the same full-circle of whatever but you're moving forward at the same time....shrug, i dunno, random thoughts-we were also talking about marriage a lot etc. and how there's ups and downs/cycles etc at Drea's bridal shower-maybe this is where it came from.

Well i'm sitting here when i know i should be doing homework but i can't help but not want to. Argh, i stink/don't enjoy at revising/rewriting-which is what i have to do with my paper,meh. Maybe i'll try my hand at my music theory assignment.

o yeah...
and it's snowing 8)

today's revelations:

Despite the fact that I complain about all the stuff i have to do, in the end i'm sentimental about classes ending-not that I don't want them to end just...giving up that routine and getting a fresh one.

It seems like I re-realize this every month but I love visiting teaching-especially when i get to do it in russian (it's seriously like being back on the mission!)

I am not able to stretch my hand/fingers so that my pinky and thumb are straight across from each other/or form a sort of line-that's crazy!

I'm introverted (well, I already knew that but more specifically: i'm an introvert who has somewhat mastered and can put into practice certain extroverted traits when it's absolutely necessary).

I found Miles Davis' "It Never Entered My Mind" (luv this song! check it out-it's the last one on my playlist-the perfect chill relaxing song.)

When I'm tired I often fight it-put it off and ignore what my body is telling me....sheesh, my body must hate me-i need to get better at listening to my body.

I'm very lucky with my malchik 8)
That'll do for now

rise and shout...yourself hoarse

The epic game of all games was last night and as always fans on both sides weren't dissapointed....well, at the end they were, haha. Every time no matter what it is a close nail-biting game and this time was no exception. We were ahead for the majority of the game but in the end they came back and tied it at twenty and we went into overtime. They only got a field goal and then we got the touch down clinching it. Everyone rushed the field (i was really high up in the stands so I opted to watch and take pics which you will see below). There were lots of interesting calls throughout the game but at least the refs started calling in favor of us in the end-my fav was when they didn't have a number for whoever that did something wrong- "we didn't catch the number"
apparently max hall raged pretty hard against the utes in the press conference afterwards saying how much he hated them and how they had no class etc.....yikes, i mean we all feel that way sometimes, but that doesn't exactly make us look the classiest either. He was saying how when they went out there last year apparently some ute fans poured some beer on his fam etc. shrug, i dunno- he has to realize he is representing the school too not just his fam. o well- not like there was a relationship between our two schools to ruin to begin with.








Well I took Eric to the airport today so he's off back to his base. IT was lots of fun having him here, eating out, playing games, etc. though I think I won't be hungry for a long time after all those restaurants 8)
hope everyone else had an amazing thanksgiving break like me!!!

that was one powerful nine mm....

Thanksgiving 2009

well it's been an eventful couple of days. Cody, Steve, and I had a fake mini thanksgiving meal. Eric flew in and we went up to SLC to eat with the grandparents and had a great time-beat grandpa in hearts so that was worth the trip alone 8) Then the next day we went with our other grandpa to a shooting range-it kicked more than i thought it would but it was fun and I wanna go again. We got to visit with lindy, aunt kris and her "friend" Jeff and Lindy's ADORABLE kids: finn and lark. Tonight was way fun- we went and ate at a peruvian restaurant that Eric said was pretty authentic, then it was over at my place for balderdash and some crazy movie trivia. Sorry again Dad for calling in the middle of the night for different movie synopsis-it was so fun though 8)

Cody is back and caught a cold up in Ogden 8( but hey, back is back 8)

here's some pics from the past few days:

my best round:

two classes to go...

I'm beginning to realize how hard it will be to get stuff done over the break-it is going to be soooo much fun between hanging out a ton with my spaz and my brothers and the random fun that is sure to take place....hmmm....why do i ALWAYS have to have a bunch of stuff due the day after break?! 2 papers, a presentation + handout for the class......sigh. oh well! I get to eat lunch in good company today and get to go with drea to pick up her wedding dress!!! it's all altered and I can't WAIT to see it on her-sniff sniff. Ok, not really, i'm not a crier when it comes to weddings. In fact, I rarely cry out of being happy-i just get a huge grin on my face that i can't stop and then my cheeks hurt....hmmm, maybe i've just never been happy enough to cry (sad day...) anywho, today is going to be a great day and tonight is going to be a great night! We're gonna go to a restaurant that will be AMAZINGLY GOOD and I'll be able to eat a bird's share ;)

eat your heart out big bird

Tonight was great as always-it consisted of an amazing concert at temple square and some delicious MAN burgers. There were some doubters of my ability to eat the MAN burger from the comments of my last post so I wanted to say: yes, yes i do eat like a bird......














THIS ONE!



heck yes....frankly i don't know how Cody doesn't get sick watching me but that's how you eat a MAN burger! I'm doin the Tim the Toolman Taylor bark right now....ok, not really.
here's to a productive tomorrow morning.
cheers

Who's ready for Round 2!

Yesterday went really well all things considered. My interview seemed to go well and i'll hear about it next week. My dictation went really well and my russian test went really well which is what i needed seeing as that's the only test 8)
My night was full of tedious things like getting my presentation ready for russian, and getting the study guide done so i can now mindlessly memorize it for russian, and i still yet to have practiced for sight singing-test today too. So....keep on prayin for me 8) But no matter how today goes-tonight is going to be great!!! We're going to a concert on temple square and MAN burgers before...i dunno....i felt like i should capitalize it...

If anyone happens to be running out of things to pray for-ya know, world peace and such things, feel free to pray for me tomorrow: interview at the MOA for an internship in the morning, then a wicked Dictation test (i need to do good!) and then a russian phonetics test-the only one of the semester (obviously need to do good).
if I had 5 more hours and energy i'd be so happy/excited to keep studying but as it is, i think i'll call it a night.
p.s. i got a hit from saudi arabia-what the random??

hoot hoot

hello little night owl-what are you doing up? Your eyes are burning and you need to get up early tomorrow so what are you doing up? There is nothing that interesting on the internet. Be honest with yourself-you are not studying or being productive. You will regret this tomorrow. So what are you looking for/waiting for. What is it that is more important than a good night's sleep? Why are you restless? Your body is ready and willing so why is your mind fighting it? Going to bed is not admitting defeat. Going to bed is not being lame...however sitting on the couch staring blankly at a computer screen is. Alright, one more listen of "I miss you" by Incubus and then it's off to bed lil night owl. You heard me, go on.
hoot hoot

"I miss you" (acoustic)
-Incubus

"To see you when I wake up is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do is a three-fold utopian dream.
you do something to me that i can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said:
I miss you.
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine.
you have only been gone ten days, but already i'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care,
and I miss you."

alright alright i'm going i'm going....

79!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh so frustrated, and yet relieved. sigh....So I took my russian challenge exam today and it feels good to have it over but not that good (see the title). Luckily, this means that I got A's for 4 of the 5 russian classes but the 5th one I got a 79 in. Ok, so I did the math and it won't really affect my GPA THAT much (thankfully since the more credit hours you get the less impact individual grades have on your GPA) but STILL. A 79! I don't get 79's in classes- on a hard test/or fluke paper maybe (but not really) but not in a class, not as a final grade. Even though I know it won't REALLY affect my GPA all that much and I'll have my language requirements for my major etc, it still just erks me that somewhere on my transcript will be those two little numbers mocking me: 79 amid all the As and Bs. sigh.....o well. It's so ironic cause I said if I just get an 80 or higher i'll be ok with that. Come on! a 79?! sigh.....fine. The reading part was way easy, just the grammar part was tricky-even tho i actually felt like it wasn't that bad, but apparently it was harder than i thought. O well...at least i didn't fail-not bad for being home for almost a year without any practice/studying up not to mention not really investing myself in the grammar while out in the field-that grade is pure immersion in the language baby.
sigh.
This one is gonna sting for awhile....oh 79 how you mock me.
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Walks, Talks, and the SMA

This weekend did not last long enough, sigh. It was full of walking, talking, and smiling which are all activities I always seem to enjoy. Spaz totally outdid himself Saturday and took me to the Springfield Museum of Art which was totally inspired because as it turns out-it has one of the largest collections of soviet art in utah-what are the odds right? It's also were the russian choir is going to sing on Dec 2 so now I know where it is 8) and I thought I couldn't enjoy going to museums any more-turns out I can. Then we got amazing chinese food that i'm excited to eat tonight-yea for left-overs- I guess eating like a bird has its advantages. Then it was time for some amazing LOST and a free dessert from our pal Nick who apparently can tell if you wear express jeans by just looking, shrug. Sadly the night didn't end on a huge high due to BrideWars-oh my goodness, do NOT watch this movie-the only way I could get through it was thinking: well, at least i get to sit here with cody, haha. ugh, i want those 82 minutes back, sigh o well. Besides that though it was an amazing weekend with some good walks in between. Now if I can just get through this week without too many scratches i'll be good 8)

I've decided that I need to do better at blogging and my witty banter is slipping.
So I'm actually looking forward to thanksgiving break. My oldest bro Eric is coming down to hang out with me and steve and we have dinner over on dad's side which should be highly entertaining 8) with hot topics such as: why is Steve sellin his plasma, who is my boyfriend, and why can't eric just settle down and find a nice girl-not to mention the fact that I eat like a bird! (oh how i loath this statement-they always told me that (rather grandpa always said that) hehehehe it's gonna be hilarious 8)

hey soul sister

Ok, so I just discovered this song today on the radio and I am OBSESSED wih it!!! It's such a happy go lucky song-just great hats off to train for comin up with it. Other things that are bringing smiles:
the new pumpkin smash at jamba juice-AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and hanging with codester ;)

steel magnolias

I highly recommend this movie. It's one of the classics that me and mom would always watch together. It has everything- it will make you laugh it'll make you cry and you feel so good by the end of it...or at least i do 8)

Some nice quotables:

Clairee: I've just been to the dedication of the new children's park.
Truvy: Yeah, how did that go?
Clairee: Janice Van Meter got hit with a baseball. It was fabulous.
Truvy: Was she hurt?
Clairee: I doubt it. She got hit in the head.

Truvy: Honey, time marches on and eventually you realize it is marchin' across your face.

Ouiser Boudreaux: I am just about at the end of my rope with you.
Drum: Well, then why don't you tie a noose and slip it 'round your head?

Truvy: There's so much static electricity in this room, I pick up everything but boys and money.

Clairee Belcher: Well, you know what they say: if you don't have anything nice to say about anybody, come sit by me!
Truvy: I'm just screamin' at my husband; I can do that any time!

Ouiser Boudreaux: You are evil, and you must be destroyed.
Clairee Belcher: Mother Nature's taking care of that faster than you could.

Ouiser Boudreaux: He is a boil on the butt of humanity!

good stuff good stuff...I hate it when I feel like watching a movie and I swear I have it but I don't really-just grew up with it and forgot to get my own copy. It'll take a lil while but I have to build up my library-especially the classics that I'll always go back to-so nastolgic (sp?)

I'll always remember laying with mom on the couch watching our movies like: steel magnolias, how to make an american quilt,little women, the horse whisperer, what else would we watch...hmm can't remember now, but all the girly ones for sure.

Gilbert and Sullivan

So last night we went to the men and women's chorus concert and it was AMAZING and surprisingly short-just an hour and that's with each choir doing a set or two and singing a set together (shrug). Man it was sooooo good! My fav of the men's was this civil war song called reconciliation-they had a trumpet player playing a taps like tune off stage and it was sooooo gorgeous and just sad-reminded me of Glory (another amazing movie and made me want to listen to the soundtrack but i don't know if i have the music with me...) anywho, the women did a great italian duet that i can't remember the name of but charlotte church did a popular version of it with herself-so pretty. Then comes the best part!! so the night was a tribute to Gilbert and Sullivan- so that means pirates of penzance! there were others too from gondoliers which we totally sang when i was in the choir only this was a different version since both the guys and the girls sang it together-it was sooo fun tho, they had great choreography and did a great job. It put me in the mood to watch the movie so i showed cody a few clips from it-of course he was converted instantly 8) i'm tellin' ya, there's no other choice with this musical.
anywho, a great night and i gotta run cause i slept in after staying up and watching a episdoe of 24 with my roommies (totally addicted-makes me happy 8)

whoo what a weekend.

So the second I got home from a great date friday night I started coming down with something, well, ok to be honest i felt like i was coming down with something all night but i ignored it cause it was a great date 8)
So anywho, Saturday i woke up and it was a lot worse- da-da-DA! Cody to the rescue-brought me lunch and medicine. We watched watcher in the woods that night with everyone-is it just me or are all movies made in the seventies trippy?? why is that? Anywho it was good though. So i went to sleep and woke up Sunday morning and felt SO bad. ya know when your head feels dizzy and light-headed, and if you make sudden movements you might lose your balance-yea it was crazy, plus the other aches of the flu so i stayed home from church and slept allllllll day....it was glorious.
Cody saved the day again and brought me some dinner and we watched the broadcast (ok i watched/slept through) but it was good...the part that i saw and then i got massacred at phase ten-sad day. Today I think I feel a lot better-i'll try to take it easy but there's a few classes that i can't miss at the end of the day so i'll gradually get back into the swing of things.
all i can say is thank goodness for Cody and that he's immune to my flu ;)

Show and Tell

yes, i was the cowardly lion and i'll have you know that I only spent 2 something for the tale. (and technically i didn't spend it cause elise bought it...just kidding elise i promise i'll pay you back!)




















In other news I'd like to introduce ya'll to my boyfriend:
He is known sometimes as cody, spaz, or psycho sleep-walker (just for you cody haha). He's pretty much amazing. He's a cook, hilarious, a computer genius (trust me, it takes a genius to not get frustrated with computers), and is especially talented at making me feel special. I won't bother to mention how surreal it feels due to how looooong ago my last bf was (whoops, guess i just did). Needless to say it has been a good weekend so far 8)
In sadder news, I came down with something yesterday. I woke up today feeling slightly achey and have this cough-ugh. O well, it was still a great night (plus i totally got 2 wholes in one at miniature golf!)

Today was a great day. All classes were cancelled except for my thirty minute sight singing class plus a ten minute test. All went well and if I can pull of an A on the next test I won't have to take the final which = happiness. The nice part about my music classes is all the finals are done before finals week normally. I studied a bit for a russian test that I'm taking tomorrow and then had some scrumdidliumptious (first time i ever attempted writing that word)fajitas at Cody's. I saw some pics from his mish in korea and it's so crazy how similar certain things looked with my mission which i guess makes sense since they're both way over in the eastern part of the world-just interesting.
so i'm applying for an internship at the MOA on campus (museum of art) and figure it's a long shot since lots will apply and they only take a few for each department in the museum but cross your fingers for me! It would be soooo cool if I got it-seriously dream come true since that is what I want to do after byu pretty much-that is work in museums and have no idea how one goes about getting ready for that, but this would be great!
alright alright, going to bed.

more mafia mania

It's all in the family

So friday was, hands down, the BEST group date I've ever been on. It was planned out so well with so many great details and little touches (all of course thanks to Elise my AMAZING roommate!) She wrote us a murder mystery dinner. It's theme was the mafia-the head of the italian mafia had been "whacked" and all the different bosses around the world were coming to pay respects and figure it out. We had a few different italian mafia families, chicago, new york, and of course: the Russian mafia. So naturally me and my date were the mafia bosses of the russians. Here's the info that we received on our characters:

"Dimitri and Natasha Bugrezava
(mafia nicknames: Sugalips and Spaz)

Dimitri and Natasha are the head Capo's of the Russian Mafia. Natasha did not grow up in the mafia, but went to Sicily Italy to study, while there she met Dimitri who was working on a "job" with the West Sicilian Mafia. The job didnt' go as planned and Natasha and Dimitri fled back to Russia where they married. Natasha also befriend Alessandra (Andrea-my cuz) while she was there-a stifled Sicilian Mafia member. Their friendship allowed communication and importations to continue between the two countries despite the previous disastrous job. Dimitri's specialty was the exportation of Opium into the Italian, New York, and Chicago markets. He never touched the stuff himself because he saw what it did to his clients, but his clients were all crazy so the "normal" dimitri received his name of Spaz because he was so put together compared to the rest of them. In his own inner circles, however, he is quite vocal and unafraid to speak his mind."

Choice of Weapon: Dimitri: Machine gun. He loved the power behind its kick. Natasha: Revolver.

Relation to Giovanni and thoughts on him:
Giovanni has never been a threat to my operations. He is a fair mafia capo.

Where were we the night of the murder?
We were beginning a new day in Russia. We had just placed a large order of opium in the states, so things were pretty relaxed.


As it turns out we sort of did kill him. The twist was that Dimitri gave his key inforcer someone to whack (his wife who was a double agent) the key inforcer was upset by this and started planning to take over the russian mafia when I found out and told Dimitri. He was upset but realized that it was his wife and that that was against the rules of the family so instead he had the guy kill the head of the italian mafia to prove his loyalty.

It was a way fun night-we made our own pasta/dinner stuff, played games to get clues, played mafia (of course) and took tons of pics which hopefully i'll get them all-i only have the few that we took afterwards but they give you the idea. Cody was awesome and spoke in a russian accent the whole night and pretty much made people laugh non stop all night.

There were great nicknames like: lost innocence, gaurdian angel, sudden death, dancin' danger, silencer, sweet eyes, kriplin' kip, killem kindly, etc.
It was WAY fun and I think we totally won the coolest dressed award ;) but really all were decked out pretty good.


Well, so I get to spend my relaxing sabbath afternoon redoing our project/presentation because our teacher didnt' like how we did it-yikes. o well nothing like a good adrenaline rush to get you started with your week-hopefully it's not an indicator of how this week will go because I have a lot of test/paper stuff goin on.


What you've all been waiting for:







just because I could 8)

what the creep-o

so i'm sitting in the library hashing out a rough draft for humanities and after awhile i notice this guy who is sitting across and to the left of me at another computer and every time a girl walks by or gets up from her computer and goes somewhere he stops what he's doing and watches her. not subtly, but blatantly watches her go and come back. I mean if it happened once-not a big deal, but every single time with all different girls?? I just wanna through my pen at his head and yell: "FOCUS!"
much longer and better posts soon to come 8)

what goes around comes around

So I went to the vending machines-the infamous ones. The one where I accidently got a snickers when i wanted m&ms. I took the extra five seconds to make sure i picked the right number and then the machine gave me two bags of m&ms for the price of one-as if to say: i'm sorry about last time-i know that i'm confusing.
and all is right with the world 8)
I would just like to apologize for any mention i've made in the past of my homework etc. Who wants to read that? no one...i don't even wanna read about it after the fact-no one likes those journal entries that are all about homework or those to-do-lists etc so I vow to never again speak of them again cause...it never ends it will be an eternal list so never again 8)

sympathy pains?

So I have this dull ache that only gets like an actual ache when i bend over in my lower right back. I don't know if that's exactly where the kidneys are located but maybe i'm feeling sympathy pains for dad-only he gets narcotic pain killers and I've got nothing. Maybe plasibos would work...
sigh, watching return to me-it's been so long but it's sooo funny-i luv the old men in it and her friend and her friend's husband-soooo funny. and of course david dachovny-soooo dreamy.
good times.
i'm so excited-i get to actually sleep in tomorrow. that's right i am NOT setting my alarm-i know, it's a momentous occation for me. 8)

oh help me! (high girly voice)

Watched stardust (when i should have been studying) and LOVED IT! After we got done with it my roommate mandy said: you'd be a good damsel in distress. I naturally made her explain that random statement and she said that i wouldn't be some useless ragdoll that the guy would have to drag around but could help/be useful etc. That's me ladies and gentlemen-useful! haha seriously it was soo funny.

lightened load

Well as it turns out I think the extreme pressure i was feeling this week was my stressing about dad. We found out back in august that he has kidney cancer though they caught it VERY early thanks to some kidney stones (yea, not a good summer for him) and he had surgery today (don't feel bad if you didnt' know-i didn't talk about it with anyone really and normally do that until there's something positive to report). Everything went great though-like clock work and he'll go home friday-ish so now that that's done, i only have two tests and a paper to get done and it's amazing how much lightened the pressure is-like the work is nothing.

To TOTALLY change the subject can I just say HOW much i hate and HOW dissapointing it is when you go to the vending machines wanting something very specific like say...oh i don't know- peanut m&ms and the numbers are slightly off and you accidentally select a snickers. now don't get me wrong- a snickers is totally acceptable...i like them (tho not as much as i like Russian snickers but anyway-yes I'm a candy connoisseur) but i wanted peanut m&ms for many different reasons such as: they're more subtle to eat during class-pop 'em in ur good, they're healthier-not that i really care about that but it makes me feel good about my choice, and oh, i don't' know....that's what i wanted!
So yea...i sat there and sadly ate my snickers and was totally NOT satisfied/fulfilled. sad day...

gasp

I'm keepin' my head above water but am one step away from having the lifegaurd hand me that long pole thingy...but really, that happened to me once at the YMCA when i was little-tried to swim into the deep end after mike. anywho, this week is a real piece of work. There's the usual load of homework plus two tests,a quiz, a project, and a paper plus there's family stuff goin' down tomorrow that makes it hard to concentrate. This too shall pass right? I am however allowing a lil distraction for myself and will watch X-files a lil later since it is 10/13.
off to memorize some painters and their works.

Ok, I have to stop- I'm totally obsessed and addicted with Gilmore Girls-argh!
I'll tell you what's bad about these types of shows too, they make you want the same things to happen to you but oh-not so fast, you can't cause you're sitting on your couch watching it happen to other people-argh!

...so my sunday was good, very relaxing and can I just say that I hate having to choose between options. Hate it, absolutely hate it unless of course it involves choosing between different candies or movies cause that's easy- you can have it all, but you can't always have it all in other categories. I'll just handle things like I always do...um...by not. handling them that is until it's absolutely necessary and then it tends to become more clear

Plan 9 from OUTER SPACE!

Ok, so you need to go and find this movie and watch it and bask in all it's horrible glory!
I just saw the MST3 reading of this movie and it was HILARIOUS (mystery science theatre 3000-look it up and never say that I didnt' do anything for you).

anywho....just quotes from the movie are great all by themselves like:


Paula Trent: ...A flying saucer? You mean the kind from up there?
Jeff Trent: Yeah, either that or its counterpart.

Paula Trent: Now, don't you worry. The saucers are up there. The graveyard is out there. But I'll be locked up safely in there.

Air Force Captain: Visits? That would indicate visitors.

Colonel Tom Edwards: This is the most fantastic story I've ever heard.
Jeff Trent: And every word of it's true, too.
Colonel Tom Edwards: That's the fantastic part of it.

Lieutenant John Harper: I'll bet my badge that we haven't seen the last of those weirdies.

The Ruler: Plan 9? Ah, yes. Plan 9 deals with the resurrection of the dead. Long distance electrodes shot into the pineal and pituitary gland of the recently dead.

Colonel Tom Edwards: Why is it so important that you want to contact the governments of our earth?
Eros: Because of death. Because all you of Earth are idiots.

Jeff Trent: So what if we *do* develop this Solanite bomb? We'd be even a stronger nation than now.
Eros: [with disgust] Stronger. You see? You see? Your stupid minds! Stupid! Stupid!
Jeff Trent: That's all I'm taking from you!
[pistol-whips Eros upside the head]

oh my my my....good laughs, good laughs.
plus imagine lots of randoms scene changes, the constant change of pure day light to night in the same scene and shiny purple tunics with black tights and boots and you've got yourself an academy award winner!

harvey, harvey, harvey dent

I'm missing a class for the first time-ghasp, I know I know, you're thinking: so you are human. Technically I could be in the last twenty minutes of my class but felt that my time was better used in describing my messed-up smile 8)
I went to the dentist to get a filling and then I was just gonna ask about some take home trays for whitening cause apparently tea stains-who'd a thought. It was funny when they asked if I was a tea drinker etc cause at first my reaction was: no, not at all because I hate tea-if i want something hot i'll have hot cocoa which actually has a flavor. Then I stopped and realized no wait...a year and half in russia with russians forcing tea down my throat every day-yep i guess that would explain it.
For those mormons who are thinking all tea is prohibited and are less familiar with tea since well...this is america, I'll explain. Green tea and Black tea is what is bad-most fruit teas and some herbal teas are just fine if you feel so inclined. I learned more than I wanted to about tea cause everyone is just so tea-crazy over in russia. It's culture. you visit someone they put on a pot of tea...prolly cause their water needs to be purified and it's freaking cold!!
anywho, so I walked in to the dentist and apparently mom had already worked it all out cause there they were stuffing all this stuff in my teeny tiny mouth and shining a very bright blue light on my teeth in 15 min increments. Then they did the filling in like 2 minutes and I was out of there with a fat lower lip (right side) and trying not to breathe through my mouth cause my teeth are way sensitive. When I smile I look like harvey dent or...rather two face-tommy lee jones' version of him cause one side of my mouth stays the same and the other curls up-it's kinda freaky.

Tonight looks like international cinema for me-they're showing a russian one and i can get extra credit. вот это да!
There's tons of seminars/presentations from the FBI and CIA this and next week...hmmm, would be interesting but my vocabulary is not up to that yet i don't think...who knows though, maybe some day ;)

two birds on a wire

why am I still up? i'm tired. I know that if I just go and get ready for bed I can fall asleep in ten minutes flat (that's quick for me) and yet I still am sitting here. There's nothing interesting on my computer and yet I'm still here. I'm in one of my restless moods and wish it were earlier so I wouldn't have to feel so guilty about being up still.
Regina Spektor-two birds on a wire gets two thumbs up.
so where can i find me a restless friend hmm? I wish I knew.
Man, I really wanna see that one part from the proposal (and no, it's not any of the parts you are thinking of-sheesh). I love it when parts in movies affect me in ways that I KNOW weren't intended.
oh alright I'm goin...

Mistake or Miracle

So I went to the dreaded dentist today-ugh and I told them that I was fully aware that I would prolly need a lot of stuff done seeing as this is my first time back from russia and not to mention a dentist in houston just looking at my teeth in the summer said I would need fillings and possibly a few root canals. The girl that cleaned my teeth was way cool and I actually wasn't bored. They took x-rays of everything, the dentist came out and said they could do a filling for this part of my tooth that chipped while on the mish and that was about it...and gave me sensodyne for my sensitive left side....um....ur telling me that my left side of my mouth has been throbbing off and on just because it's sensitive??? yea...i was floored. I guess we'll see-i go back in on wednesday for that lil filling so maybe i'll double check and make sure that everything is really ok because the only thing to explain it if it is in fact true is that it's a miracle-cause cavities etc don't just go away. Let's just say i'm not celebrating yet.

The Truth Is Out There.

So not too bad of a weekend. It started early on Thursday with a mission reunion and getting to see all my old companions and virginia staying over for the night. I hope she decides to move in in January! The next day was showing her around campus along with jeff and getting jamba juice and finding....REESE'S STICKS!!!! ok, they have stopped selling them back home-at least, I can't find them anywhere! and there they were in the byu bookstore-it was a happy day 8)
Then there was that quiz that I totally forgot about but I think I did ok-ish on...
Then there is Friday and the game that we won-yes! Then I went and killed a couple of werewolves with Harvey and saw a cute alien.
Of course it's conference weekend and the Saturday sessions were amazing! Afterwards I got together with some old friends from before the mish- most of whom were married and or engaged so it was fun to listen to all their different engagement stories and first temple experiences etc. Then it was over to the Vaughn's to watch some mulder saving scully action 8)
sigh, just can't get enough of it....so great. The perfect mix of tense, light-hearted banter, cool cop-ish drama, and supernatural= amazing show. and of course they tease you every now and then with the chemistry between the two.
anywho, between sessions today it's off to aunt diane's for dinner and family time which should be fun.
I won't ruin it quite yet just incase he happens to randomly read this before the session but I got a cool present for Steve and I can't wait to surprise him with it!

yes...it's actually 6:35 in the morning and I'm up and have make-up actually on my face. No, you have not entered the twilight zone but I wish I was cause maybe it would be warmer-i don't wanna go outside!
So the point of all this being that once or twice a week i'm gonna do odd jobs around my mish pres' house to make a few extra bucks and today is one of those days.
But speaking of twilight zoney- yesterday i was walking home from campus and they started playing the star-bangled banner and normally you're supposed to stop where you're going on campus and put your hand over your heart and listen. Well I do this and most people around me do this but then all the sudden it cuts out...then a few seconds later as people started walking again it started again and again we stopped. It happened like this 4-5 times like a crazy game of red light, green light. Eventually people figured they had shown enough respect and kept going, but it was just so funny cause people were looking around like...what do we do? i wanna be patriatic but i've got class...someone said that it was the band practicing for tomorrow's game but i'm not sure...no matter what band-they don't all immediately stop when suddenly cut-off, there's always that trumpet player that keeps playing a lil etc.
anywho, it made me smile.
off into the tundra!

wake up slow

haha, oh friends are great, friends are funny. The ironic thing is, is that I didn't necessarily have a crush it's just that...i'm a dreamer and so I'll get carried away in my own imaginings and then get frustrated when I realize how silly and girly I was being-I hadn't even decided if I had a crush or not, but that didn't matter for my dreaming self. Apparently I don't need much to go on to just whip up a possible scenario in my head and then heaven forbid it doesn't pan out just like that, haha.
anywho, but thanks for the support ya'll-you rock! Trust me, if i had an actual full on crush there would be much more details.
So I'm set to go into the drill-master (aka dentist) monday. whoopie....sigh, my teeth are one o those things that I think have been given to me to try me and it's working, but o well-this too shall pass. I saw the proposal with steve last night. It was really funny there were just those few scenes that were highly not necessary and could have been done a lil more tastefully with different camera angles. Let's just say I won't be able to watch the office the same ever again-man i almost wanted to claw my eyes out, haha but it's cured me of any future desire to go to a strip club so that was helpful i guess. shudder...
anywho, but i've decided that i really like the guy in that movie-the same guy in the in-laws. I really liked him in this movie-his personality, style, etc. and I think he's flippin hot. shrug, i'll include a pic for ya'lls enjoyment-no need to thank me.
I love tender mercies-just love em' can't get enough of em' ..."and that's all I have to say about that."

emotions are funny things. Have you ever thought about how fast emotions can change? One instant you can be all excited and one little thing happens and your excitement is dashed and you're suddenly extremely frustrated instantly regretting ever feeling excited and it's all pretty much irrational. That pretty much sums up most crushes i've had on guys, but it's ok-I've always liked roller coasters (insert eye roll here). Maybe i should just be more rational and skip out on the high highs and the low lows, or i'll just ignore it per usual and study my brain to a pulp- YEA STUDY!

oh so cold

oh so cold. I'm tired of being cold. The church was cold. I got up to bare my testimony the stage was FREEZING. The sunday school class/RS room was cold. and our apartment is cold. I'm sitting on our AMAZING recliner with a blanket waiting for my laptop to warm up and then warm me up.

Sadly I can't remember any of my dreams last night or if there was a celeb or not-i totally jinxed it anyway by pointing it out. I think my subconscious is just missing the regular volume of movies that I watch. This month I've watched maybe one or two and so my subconscious is like fine! I'll just watch some movies now but sadly can't remember the movies in detail and feels the need to include me in them-shrug. How cool would that be to go to sleep and your mind can play a movie back to you? Of course I wouldn't want it every night cause let's face it-no movies can be as crazy and random as some of my dreams and it's fun to see what I'm thinking when I'm not conscious.
Speaking of crazy dreams, so in my humanities class (which more often than not feels like a science class cause my teacher likes to go off on random tangents about electrons and quantum physics...don't ask) so in this class we learned about Jung (psychoanalyst) and apparently he had this mid-life identity crisis thing and throughout it sort of kept this journal/diary where he wrote down all of these thoughts/experiences/dreams etc and apparently they are really intense and some disturbing but interesting and they've finally published it for anyone to read. It's called "New Book" in latin. Anyways, some say no one should read it and others say that everyone should. I dunno....it seems interesting to me. There's an article on it from the New York Times called: The Holy Grail of the Unconscious. Just to sum it up the first paragraphas the article:

"This is a story about a nearly 100 year-old book, bound in red leather, which has spent the last quarter century secreted away in a bank vault in Switzerland. The book is big and heavy and its spine is etched with gold letters that say "Liber Novus," which is Latin for New Book. Its pages are made from thick cream-colored parchment and filled with paintings of otherworldly creatures and handwritten dialogues with gods and devils. If you didn't know the book's vintage, you might confuse it for a lost medieval tome.
And yet between the book's heavy covers, a very modern story unfolds. It goes as follows: Man skids into midlife and loses his soul. Man goes looking for soul. After a lot of instructive ahrdship and adventure-taking place entirely in his head-he finds it again."

um....freud...what do you think?

So the past few nights i have had consistent dreams with celebs in them. The first one: I was in a tramvi in moscow and i didn't know hwere i was goin or why i was there and val kilmer shows up like he was in the saint and we talk in russian to not give our "americanness" away and then he leaves and i'm mad cause he didn't help me. The next night I dream that I get stood up by my fiance and am upset and his brother comes and trys to make me feel better (the guy from the devil wears prada that is all cute and trys to get the main girl but ends up being jerkish?) and then sandra bullock shows up as my twin sister. Then last night's dream at the end of it randomly dakota fanning was asking me to teach her how to play fur elise.

I can't wait to see who is in my dreams tonight.

Scotland continued....

What the random?!

I realize that I have been sort of lax with my blogging of late. So here's some catch up pics from Scotland-it's amazing...I'm not a professional and yet so many of my pictures look amazing and it's not even as good looking as it really was.


This is just near our b&b in edinburough



this is called ...um forgot-but a cool bluff near our b&b



our first pub



yea...i dunno


to be continued...

and now a message from Dwight...

Philosopher's soccer match- frickin' hilarious! i luv monty python 8)

old man thunder

Two thoughts:
1. I love how much I love all of my classes. It's a lil weird but before the mish I would maybe enjoy but mostly stress....now, I know I should be by all means stressed but I just enjoy the actual in-class part of it too much to stress too much. I feel like Rorie (yes i'm referencing gilmore girls) when she goes on tour to harvard and sits in on a class and just loves all of it-is soaking it all up. yea...i realize that makes me a nerd and sadly, doesn't gaurantee that i'm intelligent 8)
2. I walked out of my last class and it was darker than at dusk (i get out at 5-not THAT late) and the clouds were all gloomy and overcast-looks cool up against the mountains and it was starting to rain and then it happened: i heard thunder. This is a rare occurance in provo-it just doesn't storm like it should here. So as everyone around me is scurring away, pulling up their hoodies (seriously, what do they think-they're going to melt?) I walked around with a goofy/sappy grin on my face walking a lil slower than normal.

ok-so cute and watch it ALL cause it gets better at the very end!

....i want one so bad...

7.67

for 4 books!!! Are they random-yes! do I need them- prolly not! but for that price those questions don't even matter anymore.
I got a random fictional that is actually based in St. Andrew's golf course and is all about it and golf so i figured-hello present for dad (did i ever mention i got a whole in one on St. Andrew's?) and then there were two random books about Russia and different things in their history which i'll find interesting no matter what and then there's the book on the 2007-2008 byu basketball team and guess who's in it??? yup Gavin Pants which was totally fun to see and i haven't decided if that one will be for me or dad but either way....7.67!
I was just thinking about looking at people around me and seeing what they were buying and what that told me about them-i should totally try it sometime, go to a bookstore and learn about the people...ok guys from what they're buying but then i realized...how confused would a guy be looking at my selections:

The Russian Anarchists
Epic Revisionism (russian history and literature as stalinist propaganda)
St. Andrews Sojourn
Brigham Young University Cougar (07-08) Basketball

....paints quite the twisted picture doesn't it....

I only need 24 more...

hours that is. I'm sure I have written a post like this at the beginning of any semester after having had a break from school but seriously it kills me how rushed and fast everything comes at me. I would LOVE to give 110% of myself to one class. I would learn so much more and would be able to commit so much more of my thoughts and efforts to it but i feel like that about all SEVEN of my classes. SO basically I'm running around from one to another trying to do all that i can and get all i can out of it and not forget it among all the other info that's just pouring into my brain and sadly some of it is splattering out.
argh.
such is life so i'll make the best of it and relearn how to multi-task and compartmentalize and pray a whole LOT!

her morning elegance- thanks marlee 8)

agreeable adventures

Talk about your active weekends-and active in a good way. First of all made it successfully to salt lake without any hiccups-kudos to me. I almost went to lagoon which was exciting-haha, jk jk. Got to hear some real chinese and eat ashtray veggies and orange rind 8)
Peaked in the windows of a haunted mansion, almost scaled the walls of the temple. Got scared by a balloon in the shape of number 5, learned that I need to brush up on my fence hopping skills, and that there is a bug somewhere that sounds EXACTLY like footprints in the grass coming towards you which i've affectionately named the (creepy)stalker bug, and most importantly i learned that just because there is an insanely long gummi snake it does NOT mean that it will taste good and that grass can infact be pretty green even if it's over on the utes' side.

Of course major props go to the cougars for our victory over OU last night. i'm not sure if my dad will ever forgive me for missing most of it but that's the kind of love i have for Marlee 8) we ate at guru's which was good but it didn't really agree with me and was more expensive than i normally go but, eh, it was ok and then we watched the dark crystal over at Chris' (wow, what a trip-i forgot how crazy it was). Today has been good but i seem to have gotten a lil cold and my roomie has introduced me to peppermint oil and it's AMAZING!

later sports fans...

bats in your belfry?

I really like my music theory teacher. We had a show and tell day yesterday where he brought his unicycle that he rides to campus every day, an instrument that he created out of some PBC pipe and a balloon-sounds like some deep ancient horn you hear in some tribe or something, and then he played us this song on the bells that he composed. yea...maybe i'm just not as cultured as i thought but i didn't absolutely love it- crazy sounding bells just sound like noise to me. I guess I just don't have the ears for it. Anyway, he told us he used to play in the bell tower up by DT and then as an after thought said-would you guys like to have a tour? Of course we all said yes very enthusiastically so he was like,...ok let's go. So we went. There's like 96 stairs in that beast! It reminded me of all those super narrow winding spiral staircases in castles in Scotland. I played a note on it. Yup, that's right, so if you heard a note from the bell tower around twelve twenty that could have been me!

anyway, that about does it for my adventures yesterday. I went to the place we'd always study in the library today and they play classical music over the speakers now which...is fine, but sometimes it's a lil too loud so that i listen to the music and forget about what i'm trying to read.

getting used to the hike up to campus 8)Can't wait for the game saturday-go cougs!

and apparently i'll get my computer back "in a few days" yea...that's what they said Saturday.
geek squad shmeek squad.

dust settling...

whew....I think I'm back at college cause my over all stress level is slightly higher and my back is tight and sore already from my backpack.
All and all the past few days have gone pretty smoothly. i'm moved in to what seems like a GREAT apartment with 5 fun girls and a ward that is very social and open to everyone. I've paid tuition (first time without a scholarship-ouch), bought half of my books (2 of which i had already bought and sold back accidentally-argh) and am TOTALLY gonna check out bigwords.com which apparently gets you way cheap books.

I have to say it is sooo weird being here with a car-it totally changes your perception of the city. For example instead of thinking I need to turn down the road with the cracked sidewalk, i now need to think: I need to turn down freedom blvd or whatever. just a lil diff.

I'm excited for my classes to start-esp my humanities classes 8) I'm only a little nervous that I'll have forgotten everything for my continuing music classes (fingers crossed on that one). I've already seen Austin from the MTC days-it's so weird! and I'm sure it'll only get more surreal as I meet more mission buddies.

surreal...yea, that pretty much sums life up for now.

o yea! and as it turns out the trouble was with my hard drive so i get my computer back today or tomorrow and will be back online more regularly which = 8)

homeward bound

Well it's been a whirlwind the past ten days full of castles, museums, galleries, pubs, and TONS of walking. It is SUCH a gorgeous country-seriously, none of my photos do it justice. Sloping green hills dotted with sheep grazing and crags off in the distance-just too cool. Having spent sometime in Scotland I've built a desire to be able to use adjectives and words such as: lovely, wee, cheers and brilliant without sounding like a pansy-i guess you just have to have the accent. Having said all that, I am ready to stop moving myself around every couple of days. The next few days will be flying sleeping and driving with a shower hopefully somewhere in there. If I can get my laptop situation squared away by the time i get out to school i'll be back on here by the weekend.

hey!
just signing off for awhile. We fly out tomorrow for a wonderful time in Scotland and then it's a pretty quick turn around and driving out to Utah + my laptop is dead at the moment (of course it is) so I'll come back when i come back but i will have plenty to write about and post pics 8)

good day to ya!

out of the wood works

so does my hair say: contact me?
haha it's just funny cause ever since I've died my hair every time I go on facebook there's someone writing on my wall or writing a message etc. and I know you're thinking......and? but see, what you don't realize is, I can go weeks without anyone contacting me on facebook first-i always do the reaching out first, I mean, I can't remember the longest i've gone without a new wall post or message but I bet I can top ya.
Anyway, i'm just not used to it and I'm trying not to get used to it cause it can't last-like all great things it will be fleeting and fickle. haha j/k i don't know where this thought pattern is going-i just got done with my gilmore scarfing for the week and it always makes me feel like rambling on and on through witty references that have nothing to do with anything and by the time you realize that they are in fact relevant and witty i've already gone. see?
k....detoxing.
so mom got this ear thing done today-hope her equilibrium (-am or -um?) isn't messed up, but hopefully she'll be good for all of our flights coming up this weekend. Yup....that's right, this weekend i'll be sitting and listening to the best 3 hours of church in my life...ok a lil blasphemous but really, i will have never been so focused on the word (prolly cause it'll be spoken with a scottish accent!)

so ya know the dawn soap commercials and how they're showing how gentle their product is by washing all these animals that had oil spilled on them and there's an otter? yea...i want that otter. Are there laws against that sort of thing?

the blondes can have their "fun" but I don't think I'm goin back!

LANDON PIGG

so I just found this guy-noticed his song from the AT&T commercial-ya know the one where they're sending pics of themselves and he sends her a pic of herself/where she is and he's there? Well it's by Landon Pigg and I've added a bunch of his songs to my playlist-just hit the back arrow a couple times rather than going through all of them. but, yea! i really like the falling in love one (from the commercial) and sailed on. I also have a french song just before these ones that I really liked-i wanted to get the song from that degree commercial with the girl in the black dress and it's this fun french song anywho...same singer just diff song on my playlist.
yup, that's how i find new music now-commercials. It's really amazing how easy it is to find too-just type in: song from At&t commercial and you're there. apparently i'm not the only one.

welp, gonna go get my hair done tomorrow *insert smile here* nothin' better than walking out of the salon and they've styled it great and you're thinking-yea....it'll never look this good again so i'm living it up while i can.

dear dream diary...

The past few nights I've had crazy weird dreams-and if not weird, a ton more than normal. The night before last I think I had a dream every few minutes and I'd keep waking up and I got so confused cause I'd start having realistic dreams like: I dreamt (sp?) that I was asleep in bed, and woke up from the alarm and got out of bed and started saying my morning prayers in russian and then I woke up and didnt' know if that really happened and I went back to sleep or if it was a dream etc.
Then last night I had a dream that combined: Harry Potter 7th book, twilight, and some past drama all in one. Yea....it was weird and I woke up feeling like I only got 5 minutes of sleep. Ya know you look tired when your mom asks: "whoa....are you ok?" when she sees in you the morning.

I would like to go to bed now.

p.s. went to the natural science museum yesterday with the girls = lots of fun. And I'll prolly get my hair done tomorrow for school= exciting.

Sweet mother it's pumpkin pie!

I've decided that in my house-ya know, the day that I have a house- I will not limit certain seasonal foods to holidays. How cruel is that??? Oh great kids ya love it? yea? good! you can only have it once a year. I mean...where's the sense in that? Hence the title. We had pumpkin pie tonight and I can NOT wait to have it tomorrow morning for breakfast!

So yea, in my house at random moments throughout the year, I might throw out some seasonal food like pumpkin pie or...christmas cookies or....man, why are all seasonal foods just glorified junk food? anyway, it'll be good-like lil mini holidays throughout the year.

I am also going to announce the fact that it is TUESDAY night and I still have one new episode of Gilmore Girls to watch-that's right! I didn't scarf it all yesterday! Maybe by about mid 4th season i'll be able to hold off till much later in the week-of course if they gave us 5 episodes every week instead of 3 it would be much easier to spread it out-someone should notify them.

off to watch the season finale of Tori and Dean.

courage vs. courgeous

Yesterday at institute the teacher posed an interesting question: what is courage.
What came to my mind was: pushing forward and doing something despite fear and we started talking about fear and if its presence was necessary to have courage. I mean, if a person does something and has no fear while doing it-are they exhibiting courage? One might say that even if there is no immediate fear felt, as long as there is a possible negative outcome in doing something and you do it anyway it's a type of courage. I dunno...I would say that there needs to be a presence of fear-doesn't matter about the possible outcomes-if you're afraid (even if irrationally) and you go through with it-ur showing courage. Fear (anxiety/worry/stress etc.) is the key (in my mind).

Example: if you're not afraid of spiders and you see one and you smash it-you wouldn't think: wow i showed a lot of courage back there! you wouldn't even think of it-could the spider have somehow evaded you and bit you etc....well yea, the possibility of it was still there but it didn't worry you. But for me, it still takes courage for me to kill a spider.
That being said, is the definition of courage the same as "courageous"?
sorry if this is hard to follow-just letting my thoughts run here.

here's what came to mind: (based on my def. of courage above) it is totally possible to not exhibit courage and still do something courageous and it is possible to exhibit courage and do something the opposite of courageous.

Example A.) Hypothetically of course, let's say that someone runs into a burning building and saves a child. It's totally possible that this person did not exhibit courage- if they had no fear whatsoever, right? (forget how unlikely it is) like say...somehow they knew that they were not going to die/had no fear etc of the situation. Sure, the rest of us would assume wow-they have so much courage but we only assume that cause we know we would be afraid in that situaton ourselves. BUT this person wasn't afraid-didn't need courage. But this person DID do something courageous.
Example B.) Let's say some young punk gets into some gang and it's his first kill. He's scared/nervous-of reprecussions, whatever but he pulls himself together and does it. Now as much as I hate to say that he has courage-if ur going with the doing something despite fear definition then technically he showed courage. But was it courageous??? well of course all of us are yelling: no! why?
because he did something immoral. In order for an action to be labled "courageous" it has to be morally right- fear is not a requirement since we would all agree that that person who saved a child did something courageous but they weren't afraid/wasn't hard for them to do.